Well its clear that we have much to learn. some great minds were spending massive amounts of time studying, learning testing ideas,traveling,losing their minds… in fact if you arent losing your mind now and then your probably not risking enough or
questioning the ‘simple’ truth. which is elusive at best. We are harassed by time. We have to get dragged around like a dog just to eat.
We have to answer questions that make little sense and never did make sense with the reasoning we have been taught . We must argue the facts of the case just when we want to relax and let life be.just as it is….thats all well and good at intervals. but the horse must kick in his stall eventually. the mind must both peer into the abyss like an intruder and claim the present with a lie as we think we can predict in our need to feel located in the dustcloud.We want harmony and find none.moreover we want control.,we find none.We want to be seen and heard,we are only glimpsed from some great divide.What was that Gang of four song …”we live as we dream,alone”History lets us down in its glow that could not be sustained.We can only dress the present in the diary of thought which wants to escape.Ive tried to meditate and was too distracted ,..what might I do with that time that kept poking me with its fickle promises.
Let us not forget our guides,like how much cinema we have absorbed and inducted into our view of life.I want that veiw to take over some part of myself. Thats my loving delusion.My folly.My embrace of the potential i saw in the mist of my childhood….which helped me love the world as it might be.